I honestly and truly believe in the bottom of my heart and with my BRAIN that my R is done, over, kaput.
So.. whats left is DBing for myself. I am NO LONGER DBing at all in hopes to get him back.
So when I take that out of the equation, why do I care what he thinks if I actually leave before he gets home?
I don't.
I am simply trying to make this work out in my best interest at this point.
Selfish? Yep. You bet. And it's about time I grew a pair.
I did some stuff wrong, but I owned it. He USED to treat me like gold but he no longer does. At this point, I am IN LOVE with the man from before, but I don't want anything to do with the man he has been since he deployed.
Looks like I can no longer lean on this board for support.
Thanks a lot to those of you who have been so great and offered your time.
