Why are you waiting until May? All of what you've written is based on your expectation that he will walk in the door, realize he's been foolish, sweep you off your feet, carry you to the bedroom and all will be well.
If when he returns and you're not there and he does have an awakening, he can find you.
I would be so gone when he gets back.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss
