I want to say that I don't care what he's doing every night; that I don't wonder if that was a lie he just told me; that I don't think about OW and him possibly together (he's still claiming that nothing has changed between them); that I've accepted that my M is over- I know it in my head, but not in my heart; and that I can visualize a life without H.... not been able to conquer any of those.
I wish I was more positive on here tonight. I don't like being 'debbie downer' (my name is NOT debbie btw.) I do appreciate that this board is a safe place to say all the things that I wish I could say to H and OW, without the fear of rejection or judgement.
This site is my lifesaver right now- please don't let go of the rope.
You're allowed and (I hope) this is partially what this site is for. Knowing something in your head, but your heart telling you another is SUPER hard because the heart is a very powerful organ and it sometimes takes over the reasoning you know in your head (...speaking from some oh-so-recent experiences) (((HUGS)))))
