PS: Pur... I have found strength but I will breathe this out loud on this board.... I think part of it is fueled by hope that things *might* change when he sees me in person. This could be a fatal mistake and I could be setting myself up to crash! So I am really trying to check my head/soul/body and stay in reality of "we are broken up... it's over" for now. Then the fall won't be so far when he comes home and it stays that way.
what happened to no expectations? He broke up and told you to leave May 1, after you asked to be able to stay...
he's leaving this summer and did not invite you to join him.
Sorry if that's a cold splash of water in your face but YES you are setting yourself up, again...
read back over your thread...you need to do that.
What you are not getting, is that being LESS available to him HELPS you...
I fear You have not detached from him AT ALL....
that's a challenge but it's a mistake not to detach. I hope you can soon.
You have a month to learn how to detach. It doesn't mean give up- but for God's sake, this man has a history of being a lousy partner and said he wants out.
What is it you think will be SO different now?
You seem to be hoping he becomes someone he never was.
If he is capable of that, why would he do so now? I mean he's treated you very badly for some time now. He's treating you like you are a tenant...
and you think that acting as if you are thrilled the landlord is home, will make him act loving AND that it won't just be for sex but for a committed r?
111, think this out some more. Back up and read your own words here. Read your thread...imagine another person wrote it.
what would you advise them?
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