I'm glad you're finding ways to distract yourself from the thoughts. I think we are all guilty of them creeping up on us.
JS has some good ideas- the storage locker is a great one! And I also agree that you should stage an activity when you know he will be coming home... when he walks in an empty house after being gone in a war zone- reality will slap him in the face. That would be his new life if he chooses to go forth with his plan.... I don't think it will feel good.
You seem to have found a new strength- and I like reading that
M-31, H-31 T-9, M-7 S-6, s-20mth sep 8/1/11 ILYNILWY 11/29/11 Creating separation papers. Discover H has feelings for BFF, she does too 1/11/12 H moves out 1.20.12