WAW told me she doesn't want to be married pt3

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complete opposite end of the spectrum. I was doing really good for a while now. Then i picked my kids up tonight and asked them what they did last night.
First yesterday my daughter had to get the tubes taken out of her ears so my w took the day off from work. We got to the out paitient place and they took my d back. My wife gave me a sandwich she bought for me from dunkin donuts. Exactly how i liked it. D came out of surgery we took her home. I met them there. Went in helped out held her for a bit cut up some food. W toldme she was good and i left. Checked in through out the day to see how she was and if they needed anything. So back to tonight.
Picked up my kids asked how last night was. S said great we got five guys and we ate down at OM place i got to play with his cats. Feel like i lost the battle again. My d even asked me daddy do you like om. Mommy really likes him. But then again they are 3 and 6.
Feel like i just took a shot to my jaw. Part of me wants to go to the date sites and start really looking. I just feel like i will compare them to my w the whole time.
Wish i could get her to really open her eyes.