living in limbo

[learning2listen]

yeah.. my bad days seem to have no reasoning behind them... h rarely takes d anymore, ( he has seen her 1 time in a month.) she is suffering and starting to really act out.. but all I can do is love her and be here for her...

for me mornings are the worst, its like waking up and re living the night mare of last august... only now I see how much time has past, i never believed it would last this long... thats the tough part for me..

but as the day progresses, i get a little stronger. sometimes i even start to feel a little angry.. not alot angry its not an emotion im good at... sad.. i have mastered that emotion... happy that is usually me... funny really he describes me as very negative.. I really dont see myself that way and make a conscience effort to not say anything remotely negative when I speak to him...

day by day, i guess...