Down Again - Is he done yet?

[DestinyUnknown]

It's been almost a week since my last post and I wanted to fill everyone on enrything to get your thoughts on how I am doing.

Journal:
Friday - Jan. 13: I get all dressed up in my "fittest" of clothing. I went out and had a drink at one of the local restaurants and then treated myself to sushi. I didn't get home too late - around 10:30. My H was up and followed me all around the house asking if I had a good time. I told him yes. I went downstairs to our our basement to watch TV and he followed me there asking if he could watch TV with me. So we did and we went to sleep. No issues/no heartache that night.

Saturday: I get up early to start housework and to complete the staining of the new door my H placed in our basement. He came down dressed in work clothing saying that he needed to go in for a couple of hours. A couple of hrs turned to 6 hrs. I was a little annoyed, but I DID NOT let it show. I continued on with spackling, painting his workroom, staining the door, and rearranging the basement furniture. My H joined in when he got home. We had a real good night.

Sunday: Not a great day because he was annoyed at not getting enough sleep. He indicated that I was moving around a lot in bed. I went to pilates class, picked up lunch and returned home to him working in the basement. He asked if I wanted to go to the hardware store with him. I did go, but he became annoyed again at not being able to find a small nail that he needed to attach a bar faucet. He lost it the day before. I did find the SMALL NAIL he was looking for and that made him smile. He gave me a big kiss for that! Later, my H asks, " Hun, if we get the basement finished by month's end, maybe we can have a Superbowl party. What do you think?"

I say, "that would be nice". He begins to note everything he wants to do before having a party. We watch a movie and go to bed. No issues/no heartache.

Monday: It's a holiday, so we are both at home. I help him do more work in the basement. He mentions the party and says he "doesn't really know anyone he would invite to a Superbowl party." This is true because he really only has one good friend and he has 2 kids at home so he doesn't really have a lot of time to spend doing "guy" things. I am not sure why he said this but it made me think briefly that he was backing off from having a party. No big deal. But he seemed depressed when he said he doesnt' really know wnyone. He knows people from work, but I am not even sure If I would want them in my house because some of them knew that he was seeing the OW who used to work we he does.

Tuesday-Wednesday: I have been trying to keep myself busy this week. With work and my workouts, it hasn't been difficult. I have also begun taking my antidepressants gain regularly. My H seems to be okay - I think. When I got home from work on Tuesday he greeted me with a huge hug. He started calling me honey, babe, sweetheart which he hasn't always done in the last couple of months. He ordered me a few items that came in the mail that day and seemed anxious to share with me. Even yesterday, he came home early and was very touchy with me.

I have been praying to keep my spirits up and to remain at a zero expectations level. For those of you out there, GALng and keeping a loving distance seems to work for me. I just to keep at at. Have a good night.