today is for some reason a bit tougher than recent days.. its kind of gloomy outside and seems to be adding to my mood.. I want to tell my h I miss him... but that would be pursueing.. so i sit and stare at the phone in hopes that some how he will know.
yesterday i was texting him to find out if he was coming to see d ( he said he might but the weather prevented it..) anyhow before i could push send he phoned me, i told him it was a bit creepy beings i was just texting him...we continued with small talk about the snow through the day..
he doesnt seem to have any emotion, good or bad, but that is just an assumption on my part... today i am sad. not tears rolling down my face, just sad..
m 41 h 44 d 17 (prev marriage) d 9 Never give up!!!!!
