(((Purg))) Sorry you are feeling so down. I think you can take some positives from that initial discussion that you quoted above. You guys communicated well and their are some things in there that your H voiced for you to really take to heart and work on.
A lot of us on here don't have much communication with our WAW and don't know what they are thinking and what annoys them or triggers them so I would write down his complaints/concerns and try to work on those issues as best as you can.
You realize that you should of cut it off after you said you will do your best which is a great sign. Don't beat yourself up over it. This obviously is extremely difficult but keep moving forward in trying to be the best person you can be. It will get better with time and it will begin to snowball if you can start to focus less on OW and more on you.
