I feel like she is the only one who will make me happy. I am realizing that might not be rational. I have only been back on my meds for a short while. I've been acting out in some very unhealthy behavior the last couple of weeks. I honestly don't know what is real and what is not anymore. This is hard.
I think you may be more rational than you think....
Although you know that you cannot lay your happiness at the feet of another person.
Only YOU are responsible for that one brother...
What is real is, that you are Bi-polar, off your meds, and drinking again (?).
What is real is, that you need to rest, get back on your meds, and get your feet back underneath yourself. Until you can do that, you will continue to contribute nothing to any relationship.
I know how hard it is to do that.
Have you looked into any support groups in your area ?
Originally Posted By: Jack Straw
Another thing I did that was very unhealthy was get rid of all my friends when we got together. I had been going to AA for a few years at that point and had a lot of friends in AA. When we met I told her I didn't drink and was in AA. Within a month we were sharing bottles of wine together and all my friends were gone. She was everything.
Get back to that...find out when the next meeting is, and find that again.
Originally Posted By: Jack Straw
Now I'm sitting on my folks couch. Unemployed. Totally alone. I will do my best not to call her.
Get out and go for a walk, exercise, whatever you need to do.
You went out for a walk yesterday, and felt a lot better when you got back. Do that when you want to call her.
Jack, I never posted to you before-too early for me- but I did read you in the archives.
What happened to that Jack ???
How did you lose yourself in the relationship ?
I don't think this is even about you getting back in that relationship right now...
This is about you finding Jack again...
You can do this, you have been there before, you can do this again....
