H had confessed to friend about the kissing. Apparently, H had realized at the time that he cared about S4 and wanted it to stop. H promised friend that he would put an end to it. However, he was too coward to tell me the truth and made up a fake story about meeting a woman in a bar and then exchanging texts. After H's fake story, I did all I could to overcome that and learn to forgive. I thought that we were doing so well. Then, H went on a business trip that I know OW went on, as well as a few others from work. It was a few days after that trip that he dropped the bomb. Makes me wonder what really happened on the trip. Even if nothing physical, did they start making plans for a future together?
Friend said that yesterday he pressed H to learn more because H had been keeping the bomb and stuff a secret from him. H told him that he had it all under control and that they were friends and told him to deal with it. Friend tried to find out whether more happened, and H told friend that H "barely cheated". You either cheat or you don't cheat, there is no "barely". Obviously he is in denial about everything. I remember stopping by H's work a couple of months ago and OW went to see person sitting next to husband. The image clearly stuck in my head and I can't get out of it. That was before I had any kind of suspicion and I'm not sure if it was before or after the kissing. It just makes me sick to my stomach. I used to work with H up until about a year ago, so many people know and I feel so disrespected. Friend said that they joke around and "fight" all day long. Friend says that it doesn't look good. H's boss thought about moving OW to the space next to H and asked friend what he thought of it, and apparently friend said it was a bad idea. So H's boss (who's also my former boss) probably thinks what they're doing is inappropriate. How ashamed I feel. And OW...bleh, big mouth and ugly face...I know I'm way better than that.
