Confused and alone

[ces67]

Stay consistent. Your detaching seems to be creating some results from the H. Keep it up and stay positive for you. Its a long journey...

"It's so hard to just keep going and saying 'I'm sorry. I don't know. I never meant to hurt you intentionally"

Your absolutely right. It is extremely hard to keep doing this. But its seems to be working. Keep it in your mind that your H's view of the past is tainted by whatever it is he's going through. He sees all your faults but shows no indication for taking any responsibility for his part in it (been there & still there myself). Just because he sees it that way doesn't mean that's the whole picture. I hope you can take some comfort in that to keep doing what you're doing. It seems to be working so good for you!