Thanks SIAS... I should clarify that I was just grabbing my luggage for my trip... but I think I'm getting towards that peace of mind. W didn't contact me tonight and it didn't really bug me.
Though... one mistake I made was the restaurant I picked for dinner. I wandered down there and sat down... then it hit me that this was the restaurant W and I went to with S on our last family get away. We snuck away to a Brewers game over Memorial Day weekend and ate there as a family. I ended up sitting a couple feet away from the booth we sat in. That brought up all sorts of emotion. But that's part of this right?
So one odd thing... W sent me an invite tonight via Words for Friends. It's a scrabble-like game you play on your phone. I debated... finally I accepted it, but only because I like to play Scrabble. I have 10 games going right now. It's funny to me though because Scrabble was always "our" game. When we were first dating and first married we played it all the time. But I would usually beat her and I wasn't a very good winner, so she eventually grew tired and stopped playing it with me. We used to play it so much that it became our "code word" for ML. But I don't know what she thinks, so I'm just going to play Scrabble because I like to. That's it.
Married 6 together 8 Me:38 W:31 second marriage for both SS12, SD10, S6 Bomb: 9/8/11 (day before our 5 yr ann) W moved out: 2/18/12 D final: 11/12/12 Share S 50/50. Spend as much time as I can with SS & SD