Too Little, Too late 3

[purgatory]

25 said: "This way you can Do the "Mother Teresa Does Not Anger NOW" exercises and build up your saintly endurance."

This made me Laugh out Loud!! My dog even looked at me funny. I read it in a caveman's voice... but you are so right!! In thinking about it, I usually left H to make plans for vacations- because we usually had to schedule around his job, but H would always tell me that he felt like I didn't want to spend time with him because I never too the initiative. I *should* plan a day trip for the family and build up to a weekend away.... that's now added to my goals list

Wendy: I've read your thread too, and I know that your BFF became the OW too... any ideas you can give me to deal with this emotional blow would be greatly appreciated! My heart/lung condition did not *cause* my problems in the M, but in hindsight, my post-partum psychosis combined with my low oxygen, led to some VERY irrational behaviors and also led to lapses in my memories of those extreme instances. My H remembers them all, unfortunately. I have recently come to accept that our versions of history are different.
H is concerned about my health. He won't say much more than that- but he has always been someone who keeps things that scare him, close to his chest. So if he's really scared of losing me in anyway- he's never expressed it. I think deep down he care a lot because he dropped everything at work and came to my last set of tests (even though I never told him to come) after I mentioned that I was a little nervous... and he's planning on coming to my next 2 tests this week. He told me: "I will be in that waiting room even if you tell me not to come."

Today's GAL efforts:

I had a job interview! It won't pay as much as I hoped (in fact, the owner said she couldn't afford what I'm worth- very flattering) but, it will be something to get me out of the house and do something that I'm good at. I should know by the end of the week! I don't want to jinx it, so I'm not going to describe what/where it is

I also got invited to go to a new church tomorrow night (and Wednesdays are my nights off from the kids!) I haven't been to church in over 2 years, not that I'm against it- just never found the right one. So, I'm looking forward to meeting new people and hopefully lifting my spirits. H doesn't know about this, so I plan on just leaving the house- dressed nice- and saying: "thanks for babysitting the boys."

Purg is slowly coming out from under the rock.... one finger at a time.