Has Broken had enough?

[broken5150]

Hi guys!

@25 Why push her to divorce me? Well, I’ve been going to counseling, and after months of W taking advantage of my finances, I was advised that the best thing to do is to divorce to protect myself financially since there is no such thing as a trial separation in Florida. I was giving her $ every Friday. Then, I would take the kids out on the weekends. Also, I would buy them clothing and extra stuff. My paycheck would practically be gone by Monday. Also,25, I’m no longer standing for my marriage. When she moved OM into the house, it was the straw the broke the camel’s back. I told her NOT to do this since she lived with my kids and she went ahead and did so without taking me nor her children under consideration. And, MIL let the whole thing happen. The situation had left me sick to my stomach. OM has moved in and practically made the house his. You know whats funny? The guy is almost a mirror image of me, my hobbies and interests.

Two years ago, I had my gall bladder removed. When I spent the night at the hospital, W walked out on me claiming that she had clothes to wash at home. On this past Thanksgiving day, apparently, one of the stones was caught in my bile ducts and decided to come out right before Thanksgiving dinner. I had to be rushed to the hospital. I was in the hospital for one week. During that week, W was texting me to give her money and telling me that my kids could care less if I were in the hospital or not. 25, Ive had enough. MLC or not, there is only so much a person can take. The scars have become WAY too deep. All her venom and all the taunting Ive been receiving from both her and OM have left a bad taste in my mouth.

Also, I had met someone through some mutual friends a couple of months ago. When she found out, that I was in the hospital, it was HER at my bedside making sure I was ok. I was holding back from perusing this R because I was still married however, me being alone in that hospital was big eye opener for me and I was shown an affection and interest that as a matter of fact, I have not seen in my W in a VERY long time. I want to pursue this R and Im not doing so, while married. I now see that I DO matter to someone.

And on that note, W has found out about this person and she could care less. There is no road coming back to me. W has made it very clear. As much as I took from her and as much as I turned my face to allot of things, she still kept kicking me while I was down.

To be taken out of my home, ripped away from my kids and have some beer drinking freeloader come into the house and just take up space??? Im sorry, but that is just VILE!

Oh, and here’s the kicker… Now that I have a lawyer and Ive done my part of the D, how shes dragging her feet and sitting on it!

What are my changes??? Well, Ive trimmed down, going to go back to school, Ive become a leader at my church and Im being a phenomenal dad! And STILL, after all her foolishness, Im still kind to her and worry about her. So, Ive made changes and shes still being ridiculous. And, to be honest, Im not willing to risk waiting a few years to see if she comes out of it. There has been a couple of times that Ive reacted to her button pushing and she says “ You see, you will never change!” That right there is ridiculous. To pull the stunts that’s has and expect me to smile and grin??? Uh uh. Ive done for almost a year and I still got crapped on.

For Xmas I got W a bloggie camera. The kids had pick it out. Last week, she said it was stupid and gave it back to me. Also, last week was my birthday. I didn’t even get a card. Oh well…

One thing, 25, that I wanted you to see was that song she dedicated. I had posted the lyrics to it. I had asked why did she do that and she replied, “It reminds me of our sitch”. I asked her, does your boyfriend know about this??? She replied with anger “DON’T YOU DARE EVER TELL HIM!”

@Mach

Mach! Van Halen’s back and the new song totally REEKS!

Im being very careful how I spend my $ right now. I have a feeling that I might be needing it for my lawyer. My retainer is all but gone with him. So, Im still saving up and taking care of the old man.

To take custody of my kids, I will have to prove that shes an unfit mother. Im giving her some more time to do her part and move on with it. Remember, she has a great advantage. She has a home. I don’t. Also, there’s a possibility that my dad my have to be transferred from a ASL to a home. That’s more $ out of my pocket. The kids are not being neglected nor mistreated. So, I really have no grounds…