Together since we were 15...Part 2

[Jenna333]

He says it's basically like a divorce. I'm sure he'd have filed by now if we were married.

I'm not sure what else to do. I'm letting him go, 'detaching', so that I may live my life without constantly focusing on him and wanting him to come home. What if he never does? He's made it very clear that he does not want to be with me and he wants to see what else is out there. Sure, he comes over here and cries and says it's bittersweet that I'm changing now and he wishes I would have while we were together, but that doesn't mean he wants to be with me. He's sad/down right now because his life isn't looking up like mine is.

I worry that if I continue to hold onto the hope that we'll get back together, I won't move on and be happy again. That thought terrifies me. I would love for him to wake up and realize what he's throwing away, but it doesn't seem like he will anytime soon. He wants us to live our lives apart. He says we may end up back together someday, but we may not.

I'm pretty sure it was you who said the best way to get him back in my situation is to completely ignore him and live my life. That's what I'm trying to do.