WAW told me she doesn't want to be married pt3

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Gabby I realized something this morning. My W is with OM but they don't go out. She stays in every weekend and hang out with people in the building. Even when she doesn't have kids. I have so many ideas now for things for us to do and share time with and without kids. It is sad to me really. Like I said I see things differently and I DO want to reconcile and be the MAN/HUSBAND that she deserves. I have even thought about giving her a thank you card. To be honest without this happening I would not be the more confident more adventurous person I am now. My brother snapped at me at the office yesterday, old me would have not said anything instead I snapped back and he apologized later on. 8 months ago I would have been quiet and not said a single thing. This is a new me for 2012 and I am here to stay. She planted the seed for the triathlon and I am started last night training for it in a way. This is my first week and I plan on following through with this. I have 21 weeks to get it in gear.

Now do I give her a card thanking her for the changes I have made. In a way it is her doing but MY undertaking. I know redundant. The way I look at it though if we were still together I would just be living a boring life. A few months back she said I was 37 years old and not going to change and she can't change me. Well guess what, by going through all this she has. I don't want to make her aware of it and I am not saying she has noticed. Just a thought.