Done lurking, need advice.

[Grmpy_Mnky]

"Thing is, I'm not sure what "growing a pair" means in this context, versus DBing. But to me, DBing and "growing a pair", in my paradigm are the same things."

This is an excellent point and really fairly obvious. I know I am still pursuing. I may not be outwardly articulating the pursuit, but it is pursuit nonetheless.

I have gone to great lengths not to see her nor have I for a couple of weeks. Still, its the little things like all the photographs of me or me/her have been placed in a pile for removal. This hurts the most I think. Told my coworker this and he said that "once they do that its all over, accept it and move on". So darn hard. Please understand that I was never abusive or hurtful, but rather I was at times distant when I was in my funk. That gets better everday now. I feel that her actions are not commenserate with my offenses. I realize it does not matter what I think when its she that his hurting. Just amazed and dismayed by all this.

I did learn something about my emotional state this weekend. I went on a date thinking it would be good for my self esteem. Nice girl, met her at Barnes & Noble for coffee. It lasted all of 25 minutes before I had to leave. It felt sooo inapropriate to be there. Too soon.

Ask and ye shall receive. Thanks 25!