I need help please.......so conflicted

[seanna]

My husband of 17 years had an affair that I discovered on our our 14th year anniversary. It had been going on for 3 years prior.

It continued for another year after I found out and he was going back and forth, it was a horrible year.

Then he decided to stay & work it out with me. he didnt see or speak to her for a year and a half. He got depressed, called her & wanted to know if the could be together in the future when our kids grw up. They are 10 and 8 now. I just had a feeling something was going on and I went there and saw his car. That's how I found out.

I want a divorce (i think). I mean, what is wrong with me that I would take this crap?
I need advice please....Thank you for reading.