What does this coming back together look like for you ?
When you envision the two of you reconnecting, what does that look like ?
I think you have some issues that you have glossed over fairly well, that you may have to address before that can happen.
Have you thought about some counseling ???
Just for you ???
It's easy to blame your spouse for our short-comings.
Much easier to give them that power over YOUR decisions, and poor choices.
The bottom line is, that WE are responsible for ourselves. And we cannot get caught up in the blame game. The past is the past, and we should always move forward. Yet understanding the past, and our mistakes through our past, is what allows us to have a road map toward our future.
Your past is the only thing defined by your past..
Your future is still unwritten...
What do you want that to look like ???
You STILL haven't answered one simple question that I asked you in my first post to you...
At least not a clear one, it was more of a conditional response...
Are you able to forgive?
Without YOUR answer, you will not be able to move forward.
That forgiveness encapsulates the entire relationship though.
Forgiveness is a gift that you give yourself.
To be able to do that, you must first identify YOUR role in the way the marriage was in the past.
So far, you have placed a condition on whether or not you could forgive her....
What conditions do you place on yourself for forgiveness ????
I know you are waiting for the books to arrive...
Not an excuse. Read others threads, read the archives, post to others and build some relationships here.
Some of the relationships you build here, will last a lifetime..
