That's true Angel. He also blames himself. I agree that if it had not been for his choice, I would not be here, but... I need to find a way to move on and stop holding it over his head. For now, he's in a place where he understands.
Went to my counseling appt today and it went well. It was helpful, but I still feel like crap tonight. I feel like I want to be alone.
