What really helped me make it through the hardest times at the beginning, was just telling myself to act. Pretending I was in a movie.
Now that I have been in it a few months my calmness is genuine (that took months) but it the beginning I would just fake it. In my mind I keep repeating that I dont want to give him any satisfaction of thinking he is right that I do lose my cool
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