What really helped me make it through the hardest times at the beginning, was just telling myself to act. Pretending I was in a movie.

Now that I have been in it a few months my calmness is genuine (that took months) but it the beginning I would just fake it. In my mind I keep repeating that I dont want to give him any satisfaction of thinking he is right that I do lose my cool


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M 39
H 35
D5,D4
M 4
T 9
ILYBNILWY 5/18/11
Left 7/11/11
Divorced 12/1/13