The fact that your H was able to keep his temper with you hurling stuff is a testimony to how much he wants to set things right.

At least you are now recognizing that your anger is off the chart, and acknowledging that this is not right.

You are looking for the smallest reason to think negatively of your H. Seeing all remnants of OW going into the trash would have made me very happy! In your case it just triggers your memories, and worse than that, you are sooo ready to think the worse of your H. Imagine thinking that he was listening to it?That is very, very unhealthy.

Please, please get some help before something terrible happens.

Me:49 H:45 D:12 M:14 T:18
Bomb: 6/26/10
EA: 9/3/10, fizzled out slowly, now ???
11/5/11 Retrouvaille
Finally piecing....
Its peaceful at last, but we got a looong way to go