I hear you, and agree with you KD. But what if she just hates my a$$ right now? I mean, I don't THINK that is the case - but who knows. She has been kind enough to invite me into her condo to play with the baby on "her" day with him. We don't have "deep" talks in those moments, but we DO talk.
I guess I keep going back to the fact that yes, she sees me as being happy - and that is a good thing. But she thinks I am happy because she is out of my life and that is a bad thing.
Do I tell her yes - I am happy, but it is not BECAUSE you're gone - it's DESPITE the fact that you're gone. I am happy because I have gotten out of my own way and have decided to focus on making myself happy. I am focusing on making the changes necessary to make life better for me - and I want you and S to be a part of that.
I wanted to say that "not a day goes by where I don't miss you and our son together" - but that sounds kind of pathetic, doesn't it?
Did NOT expect this part to be so thought provoking.
