Counselling can help, but what is going to be more important is your resolve to see YOURSELF through this. Sometimes, when asked how I did something, or how I got myself to a place where ... whatever ... my answer is I JUST DID. None of this is easy, but most of it is simple.
Choices. Clarity.
So you don't want to a be a victim anymore, good. What does that look like? How will you know when you are no longer being the victim?
For now, stop worrying about whether or not you want him back. Let's take the focus off of him all together for now ... anger and resentment won't serve you well E2B, forgiveness brings you PEACE. But it's a process.
Baby steps.
Did you make your appt?
Holding onto anger to punish someone else, is like lighting yourself on fire to get smoke in their eyes ~ 25yearsmlc
