How bad, I just realised this. I used to go out drinking after work pretty regularly. There were many nights where W would pick me up from the train station at midnight smashed. She never asked where I'd been or what I was doing, she'd just come and get me. I just saw it as relieving the stress of the week, the kids would see me in this state sometimes. This went on for a long time, I loved her for being there for me, she never said what it was doing to her. I never cheated on her. I broke that cycle just over a year ago.
