Hanging for my books to get here. Ok, I wont' tell OW.
How bad was it before? Honestly, I thought not all that bad. There was never any physical violence, we went to dinner's, I bought flowers every now and then, romantic surprises. But we argued regularly, a lot of financial frustrations and the conversation would often end with me throwing up my hands and saying stuff like, 'you're an idiot'. The other thing she's raised is that I never compliment her or elevate her when we are in public together, and now I can see that I've shot down her self esteem. After many of these arguments I had asked for us to go to counselling but she wouldn't be in it.
Forgive? I don't know, I think so. The counselor said she'd need to tell this OM it's over in front of someone else and leave her job. If she could do this I think I could, but how do I know he doesn't pursue her even when she's left, he's said to her he's willing to leave his wife for her. She lied about this, she could as easily lie about not hearing from him again.
Am I supposed to just take her in my arms and give her all the things she's craving? If not will she still be hungry for him?
So I can't get the OG out of my mind, and can't get to sleep. I asked W when they were last physical, it was last week in the afternoon, after we had been physical in the morning. I picture the two of them together, he lives in the area, I want to track him down, or 'bump' into him on the way to work. When I picture us reconciling I see her still thinking about him, comparing.
And Mach1, Rick1963, Kaffe Diem, Ces67, cat04 thank you all, you are making such a difference for me.
