My anger was the biggest factor in our break-up. I have done a lot of work learning to control/hide it. I've felt myself backsliding during this current sitch... but you're right: that's how I've always reacted under stress and pain- H is expecting it. If I can somehow get it together and present a calm demeanor- that will be better for me in the long run (and show H that I *can* react differently)
I can see a glimpse of light that I might have the strength to hang around and face this head-on... but I will have to use this board to vent out all my frustrations, since I don't currently have a friend to turn to (that will be on my GAL list).
Maybe I can take a week or two off to calm myself and collect my thoughts.... maybe my grandma would like a visit? And then come back and show them that I am the better person for sticking around
This ^^^^^ will take every once of strength and 'controlling my smart @ss comments and temper' that I have.
M-31, H-31 T-9, M-7 S-6, s-20mth sep 8/1/11 ILYNILWY 11/29/11 Creating separation papers. Discover H has feelings for BFF, she does too 1/11/12 H moves out 1.20.12
So sorry you have to go through this. It really must feel like a second bomb being dropped on you. And the so called BFF cannot even be considered a friend. If she truly was your friend, then she would have never imagined anything with your H, even if she had any kind of feelings for her. I'm so sorry you have to lose "a friend".
Don't feel guilty for all your anger. I would be furious if I was in your shoes. Unfortunately, anger does not resolve any problems. You will have to go through the grieving stages of yet another loss and feeling angry is part of it, just try not to let it out on your H or OW.
Visiting your grandma would be a great idea. Take time to get away, calm down and think things through.
