CAUGHT HIM IN HIS LIE!

[imthemom]

abby...
i totally get how your feeling, its the whole feeling like youve been replaced that makes you feel so desperate. Its a horible feeling. I always thought that if a man ever did that to me (have an A) i would be out of there...it was a deal breaker as far as I was concerned.

And then I caught my H in bed with that woman and for the next week all I could think about was being with him. Like you said..seriouse lack of self confidence. I have sense worked on many things about myself and know that I deserve so much more. It doesnt make it any easier, and yes I love him and miss having that companion but not the person who is capable of making me feel the way he has. And I wouldnt sleep with him now if he was the last man on earth. As a matter of fact it is really hard for me to even be around him without feeling kind of dirty and grossed out.
I can tell you that it gets easier...its been over 3 months since I found out about ow and yes, i still have minutes of anxiety when I think about them together but its not as frequent and its not the gut wrenching pain and agony it was .....shockingly it does get easier.
be gentle on yourself...I think its a huge shock to our senses and we just have to ride it out.