Had such a great weekend, out and about busy with friends and met with my councillor, who helps me immensely.
BUT....Having a really bad day today. I am missing H terribly. Just when start I think in my head "how can i let someone i love hurt me soo much" and that i need to let go and move on with my life in my heart and my soul i miss him soo much. i miss the him he was with me up until 3 months ago and i really want him back. I've been cry uncontrollably pretty much all day.
my soul tells me this isn't it for us but i really don't know how much heartache i can take. Sometimes i wonder if that is just me in denial of his feelings but then i remember what i have read on countless boards on this site that gets me through this..."don't believe anything he says and only half of what he does". I want to love and to be loved more than anything right now and yes i have amazing support from family and friends but there is a huge hole in my heart right now that yearns for my H.
