"The purpose of this letter is to primarily let her know what I feel my role was in the meltdown, she asked to hear that. I also want her to know what I have learned over these few months about myself, my feelings, and life in general. That is it. It's not to beg, plead or to pursue. Still a bad idea?"
Crimson, I don't think that it is ever a bad idea when you go with what is in your heart. Which reminds me of a quote I once read.
"When you bait your hook with your heart, the fish always bite."
I interpret that to mean that when you put your heart and your soul into whatever it is that you do, that effort will be evident to all. Whether you choose to put your heart into spoken or written words is your choice. Just let your heart speak for you.
Just be mindful of the fact that whatever you choose to do, don't expect your W to come running back into your arms after she reads or hears what is in your heart. You'll be terribly disappointed. She may begin to have second thoughts, but don't expect it, ok?
Me51 W53 S17 S14 M22 T25 Bomb-9/11; A-11/11; I move out 11/11
It's easy to find our bottom, it is our top that requires cultivation.
Every rough spot adds to our emotional constitution. -Barney Fife