I am really trying to split the difference on those two options by saying that I am not happier without out her - but I am moving forward with my life and making myself happy with my circumstances by making a lot of necessary changes. As I said before - I am finally getting out of my own way and making a decision to be happy. Naturally, I would be happier if she would come along - but I am not longer going to wallow in the mire (thank you Doors) and I am going to be positive and happy about life. Not BECAUSE she is no longer with me, but DESPITE that she is no longer with me. Does that sound reasonable?