My actions have lead the whole way for the last several months. I have said absolutely nothing to her about me, my feelings or our relationship since before she moved out. Rather, I have focused on myself....a lot. GAL, and taking a look at how I ended up here. I have made a lot of 180s - never breathed a word to her about them and she still noticed or mentioned on her own. I have no intentions of letting any letter or communication stop the progress I have made. I FULLY agree that actions outweigh words by a factor of at least 100. At the same time, I feel that there comes a time when words aren't completely worthless if not frequent and overdone. Especially since we no longer live together and have limited, yet mostly pleasant interactions. I have NO intention of making a habit out of letter-writing or R talks....at all. I still am, and plan to continue, leading with my actions.
The purpose of this letter is to primarily let her know what I feel my role was in the meltdown, she asked to hear that. I also want her to know what I have learned over these few months about myself, my feelings, and life in general. That is it. It's not to beg, plead or to pursue. Still a bad idea?
