I think there are things that YOU should take a look at if there is hope for you mending this fence....
What if questions that are HUGE in this..
What if she had a PA ???
What and how are you different since your light bulb went off ???
How do YOU interact differently than before ???
And the really big question that seems so simple in theory...
Are you able to forgive, in whatever capacity that that entails ????
Because if you are incapable of forgiving , you will be walking in quicksand....
And that forgiveness isn't just for her, it is also a gift that you give to yourself...
Usually through times like these, there are walls of trust that are shattered. Things that you have done to destroy that, and things that she has done to destroy that.
Trust is the hardest thing to gain, yet the easiest thing to lose.
Obviously, trust has become an issue, at least for you trusting her. I mean , you trusted your friends word over her word when you went looking through her things.
She knows that you looked through her phone...right ?
What really strikes me though is the BEFORE things blew up..
You glossed over that pretty damned easily to get to where you are now....
