West, I wish you well. I read that you don't want to continue as you have been. You don't want to keep hurting your W. Who knows why she wants to keep you in her backpocket and does it really matter? When I look back on all the stupid things I've done in my sitch, they all made perfectly good sense-TO ME at the time. Now some of it looks pretty crazy.

I hope you will talk with your IC about obsessive thoughts and get some treatment if necessary.


Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss