Separation Helped So Far..

[anyhope]

H cut back on asking if we could work on us, cut back to about once a week. Its doable. My answer is still the same however given the break he's been giving me asking we talked quite a bit (about nothing) went out last weekend, he wanted to go with me but I said I'd only go if a friend came, so we took a friend. I even mentioned that we could go see a movie ( I'm not trying to get reconcile at this point because I can't, but just as friends I figured) he got really excited and had called every day to ask if we're going today so the more he called the more annoyed I got and figured he must be getting the wrong idea and we didn't go yet.

Another set back just recently, he's been calling all day again, and asked to give him another chance again during the last call, I said what I always say, I get really really mad when he doesn't get that I can't give him another chance. I asked why didn't he give me another chance when I asked for it (after he cheated) so he said he's ready now and I said that it's perfect because now I'm no longer interested. And he keeps asking if it will change and I keep saying I don't know.. I do think about it every day but I keep thinking that he never loved me and I prove it to myself too, I don't trust him (no wonder), I can't imagine having him as my husband in my life, feels like something has stopped whitin me and those strong feelings I felt to make us work a few months ago are no longer..

So anyways, long story short I'm really upset right now... No major changes..