I am carrying myself better walking more confident and upright. Before when I would walk through halls in the office my head would be down looking at the ground and I felt my shoulders rounded. Now shoulders are back and I am looking in front of me. Also realized that I am not thinking of my W and the OM as much like I was. Guess I got used to it. I still think of my W from time to time but not as much as I did. Its funny and I have made this comment in a past journal. When my kids are with me I am sleeping on the floor outside my bedroom on my old twin mattress. The same mattress that I slept in when my now W was just a friend and dating someone else. I held out hope then to start dating her. Now I am sort of back in the same place. Funny how life comes full circle.
I was talking with a friend yesterday about how things change. He has been chasing this girl for the past few years and he found out through facebook that she is engaged. At the same moment he got a phone number from someone he was chatting with on match.com. One chapter closed for him with that girl and now he is looking to see what happens with this new one. We were talking about how things happen for a reason to make you a better person and take what you have and either fix it or drown in it. I told him what 25 has been telling me, change and fix myself to become the better husband/father/spouse only a fool would leave. I am getting there. I hopefully will hear back from aetna regarding a resume and referral from a friend of mine there. Also got a few job leads from another friend of mine, his work will be hiring soon as well. So far 2012 looks a little promising. We shall see how the cards land on the table and hopefully the dealer took the joker out of the deck.
M37 W34 S6 D3 M8yrs T14 S 1year Told me she doesn't want to be married 10/2011 "I will never stop trying because when you find the ONE, you never give up." Steve Carrell Crazy, stupid, Love
