Together since we were 15...Part 2

[Jenna333]

I don't think I have the desire to work it out with ex anymore. He keeps showing me who he is now and I do not want that person. I'm shocked as heck to feel this way. I think I'm finally gaining self-worth, because "I deserve better than this..." keeps running through my head.

Our interactions today were not positive. It was obvious that I'm angry at him. He was defensive. I wanted him to admit that he was interested in at least the coworker he's texting while we were still together. His response? "Believe whatever you want to rationalize this." He also said he's glad it's over after I said I couldn't trust him. I told him that was a cold thing to say, and he said he didn't mean it and doesn't feel that way. Can you see me twitching? He drives me crazy.

I guess I'm not the type to want to come back after he has/had an EA (and I'm sure he'll start having sex with others before long). I know it didn't progress into anything other than chatter until we were split, but he can deny that the interest was there while we were together all he wants. I don't believe it for a second. I feel very done. I know what my EA did to us.

As he left this afternoon, he told me that I could just look at a guy and he's mine. I just want to punch him. He needs to keep those comments to himself.

I hope this feeling lasts. And I hope it's ok to keep posting here, even though I don't think I want him back anymore? It's nice to 'be around' people who know what I'm going through.