Ironically, in the course of his EMDR and working on his abuse and abandonment issues from childhood, he has actually started to change his mind about marriage. He told me that he might actually consider getting married, but he needs someone who is more than his best friend, he needs that spark, the in love feeling. And that it's not fair to me to stay together if we aren't really more than best friends.

It's a good thing he has his own house to hide in or I might kill him right now! (Just kidding. Mostly.)

Goals? I guess right now I'm just trying to make it through this week. I asked a friend to come up for Saturday/Sunday just so I don't have to be in my house alone. I have had the disturbing realization this week that most of my friends have moved away. They are all in So Cal or out of state. Two of my bestest friends are at least still here in Nor Cal, but they are a couple hours away. The people I have spent the most time with the last year or two are really Roger's friends.

One of my friends who only lives about 30 minutes away is trying to start up a weekly crafting group. I think I will need to pursue that.

But I'm limited by the dog. Roger has basically abdicated her to me, says he will dog sit when needed and take her if I need a break, but he thinks she will do better staying at my house since that's been her home since we got her. Part of me agrees with that, but then a big part of me is just screaming we got her from YOUR friends, TOGETHER. I never would have a dog if it wasn't for you and now I get 80% of the responsibility of dealing with her?

Michelle - Proud DR Rockette
S: 28JUL07, D'd: 29OCT09
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