WE PROCEEDED ON

[gunny]

thanks everyone for posting,
Nothng new going on, I will probably hear from my w in the next few days to tell me how our dogs operation went. Funny, never thought I would be saying this, but I actually would rather I didnt hear from her, I feel like I am at the stage of detachment where I'm starting to feel more in control of myself, much less depressed, very little anxiety, and sleeping better.

Reading the book "journey from abandonment to recovery" I think I am slowly getting into the acceptance stage, where I am becoming a little more balanced in my guilt feelings about the end of the m. I still take responsibility for my actions, but I am a little more cognizant of the fact that my w shared some responsibility also. People on this board have been telling me this for months, but it isnt until you can start believing it in your own mind that you really can begin to heal. I finally feel like I've made it over some hump, my IC told me the other day that she feels I have progressed enough to see her every other week, vice every week. Small progress, but I will definatley take it.

Compared to how I felt right after thanksgiving, I feel much better. Don't know if it is the meds, GALING, accupunture, or a combo of all of them, but I definately feel better, thank you all for your support along the way, and for those who are new and just starting out, know that I WILL EVENTUALLY GET BETTER!!