Despite having felt physically odd, I was able to sleep just fine. The exercise in gratitude journaling was helpful (including being grateful for a discussion that, even if it was about money and setlement, didn't degenerate to an argument), and I was eager to start "5 Love Languages."
I had a couple friends in 'non-DB-land' who immediately upon hearing about the conversation called BS on the out of state job thing. One friend said she was too close to her immediate family here to actually do it; another friend suggested it sounded like bait for me to be pursuing - which maid sense, given that the last couple times she's tried baiting me into a hostile defensive reaction I've let it slide. So now she may be trying something else. It was an interesting perspective, and made me think that stopping the chase was starting to get results.
Of course whether she goes out of state or not is totally out of my control. Maybe she will, maybe she won't - it can't change what I do for me. I reminded myself of that a few times last night and when I woke up it seemed like it had sunk in.
And then I had a pretty sweet workout
Me: 36 Her: 35 Together 7/09 Married 8/7/10 Separate rooms since at least April 11 "I've decided I want a divorce" 12/5/11 She moves out of state/files 2/7/12 Dissolution final 5/12
