Little update-

So since I was in Denver Monday and Tuesday I had reached SEVERAL days without seeing my son. My W has Wednesdays and Thursdays so I asked if it would be OK if I came to her place to see him. She said that would be OK and said there was a park right around the corner that he likes. I told her she would be more than welcome to come along, and that it might be good for S to see us both together - even if it is for a little while. She declined the offer and said that S needs "dad time". Hey, at least I put it out there.

I got to her place and tapped on the window and S gave out a loud "DADDY!!!" and a huge smile. W opened the door and I kneeled down and gave him a big hug and told him how much I missed him and how happy I was to see him. I damn near cried.

I took him over to the park and we played for about an hour. It was wonderful - he was so happy and laughed, and ran......just wonderful. We went back to W's place and I just sat on the front porch with him. W opened the door and talked to us a bit. My uncle passed away this week and she was asking about him.....remembering how nice he was to her and how he went out of his way to welcome her to the family. It was nice.

She invited me in by saying "S, do you want to show daddy your blocks??" - so I went inside and sat on the floor with him stacking his blocks until he got bored with it, handed me a book to read him, and plopped into my lap. I read to him while I heard my W drawing a bath for him. I got him ready for his bath and met W in the bathroom. She dropped him in and started cleaning him up.

Oddly enough, she asked how my trip to Colorado went. I said "well" and touched on a few things I did. She asked what friends I saw (interesting) so I gave her the list. I told her that she was right - it was a really beautiful state. It was time to take off so W said "Tell daddy bye bye!". I gave him a little kiss and I was on my way. First time I've left him there without crying on the way home.

For a little bit, it felt like we were a family again. I miss it so much. Maybe she felt the same way.....bah, who knows.

Crimson