take a deep breath...

that is a lot of information to get thrown at you at once. and i assuming your imagination is running rampant! it's a lot to digest in a short amount of time.

you have probably spent hours speaking to your bff about your situation, so she would also have heard all the bad parts as well. probably might have also thought things like, you should just leave him (because that's what people who love us tend to think). are your thoughts just manifesting out of fear (i know i do that all the time.. my imagination runs wild and then i get all worked up and almost accuse H of things that haven't even happened)? is there anything your bff has done or said that makes you think she would consider betraying you that way?

i'm sorry you're hurting honey. wish i could wave a magic wand and make everything better for all of us.. in the meantime.. just keep posting. fyi.. i am on the westcoast and up late!


Me:38.. H:33.
Two beautiful kids S:6 D:3
M:8.. together for 11.
Bomb dropped:10/17/11
Separated:11/07/11