And I think your balance is thrown off because you appear to be looking over your shoulder to see where she is...
Meant to comment earlier on this from Mach... yes, you are 100% on. I am still looking over my shoulder to see where she is. Not nearly as much as I used to, but still too much. That remains a work in progress.
Married 6 together 8 Me:38 W:31 second marriage for both SS12, SD10, S6 Bomb: 9/8/11 (day before our 5 yr ann) W moved out: 2/18/12 D final: 11/12/12 Share S 50/50. Spend as much time as I can with SS & SD