The year of not my problem

[AJM]

Just journaling. Things have been really good for me. I got a thank you text from D. That was certainly unexpected but nice to get.
Also got a lot of flack from ex. She's still a monster, but didn't expect much else. She told me to wake the f** up about my daughter. Said I should think of her (I do) and when I asked her for her to share her thoughts (it is my daughter after all; I feel I need to ask if there is something to hear) she replied she doesn't care to share anything with me. This was from a conversation where I asked for my son's passport to renew it. I want to take him to London for the 2012 olympics. She got indignant for my daughter (WTF? right?) Said I should think of her feelings. To which I pointed out that daughter is welcome to come and doesn't know about it, so it won't bother her for now even if it did later. She ranted and raved that I should call the D's therapist. Yeah right.

Lots of mixed messages in that sense. She acts like she wants to share things about the kids but then shies away and acts like an orgre. I realized I have to put up with this behavior (to some degree) for the next 3.8 years while my son is not 18. After that, we don't have to talk. I look forward to that, because it is annoying.

When I got back from Calif I cleaned out the storage. It dawned on me then that she left her past behind. Pictures, keepsakes, etc. Me included of course, but more than that. I knew that, but it really sank in that day.

So I swore off crazy people for that month. I liked that enough to extend my crazy people ban for November and then December. I'm still carrying on that ban, in case you wondered and it really works well for my sanity

Things are settling at work. I'm getting into a groove and starting to feel more comfortable. Things that happen outside work really don't bother me much. At work they don't either but that's just me. I take them as they come and deal with them. Feels good to be accepting things like that. Feels natural.

I've decided to return to college as well. Working through the mountains of paperwork. Wheeee.....

Also taking on more at church. Lots to do there.

And I'm dating a really nice girl for a few months now. It's fun and relaxing if not difficult to get the time.

Anyhow, nothing else to really report on nor update. Things are progressing but mostly at a slow pace.

Peace,
AJM