feeling like giving up.....former DBing against OW

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Friendly involvment continues from H...I dont know what to think. Could something as simple as becoming kinder make that big of an impact??...or is it that Ive just started to get to the point of forgivness, for myself not for H, and its makeing it easier for me to except.

There was text exchange yesterday asking about S21 (special needs) and a sitch that is going on with him. H has not asked or seen this S since asking for D in Sept. as a matter of fact him knowing about sitch was only because S14 told him. He is being kind in return, that in its self is a change. S14 told me Sunday that H was home sick so we stopped by on our way to a friends and dropped off some chicken and dumplings we had had for dinner. That was pretty hard for me to do, pride alone would normally keep me from that..but S14 wanted to and in my head i thought, thats a kind thing to do...and also reminds him of what he is missing. so i did it.

This morning i text good morning like I did a few days ago and he responded with good morning.

so, my dilemma is this...In my head this feels like im just being nice and maybe just a little pursueing...I dont know, im not use to doing it and im not sure what it looks like. Is this baby steps or is this me annoying the hell out of him??

And the other side of my brain is asking, Is he just going along with this because of the settlement papers he was sent last week, thinking he shouldnt really make me mad right now....He wants to try to get me to agree to less.

OR...did the settlement papers scare him enought to rethink what he is doing? and ask himself if it is worth it?????

regardless...I am just getting this out...I intend to keep on my path, working on detaching and staying kind hearted and forgiving...detach..kind hearted..forgiving...yep yep!!