Indecision and the affair continues (Part 2)

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H called from OW's city yesterday and was "friendly". I had written him an email before he left for his 10-day trip to express some of my feelings. He said he appreciated the note and would respond.

I am feeling "extremely" detached. Probably detached to the point where it isn't really how I feel. My H believes we turned a corner last weekend and I have changed. I think that is true.

I feel like I would still work on our marriage and I want to keep our family together...but H would need to completely end the affair and beg me to try again. I agree...given how long his affair has gone on and how ridiculous he's been...I think this is how I should feel.

I was honest with "the other guy" about my H's ambivalence and the mess we're in. We talked on the phone last night and may have dinner again some time. But, definitely taking it slow and keeping this a friendship. I'm still feeling like I need a break from the anxiety.