Here is a question at large just regarding the content. One of the things that I have been very focused on in the "list of 37" is:
"not discussing the future - they aren't interested in a future with you right now."
Now, on the one hand I see how it is imperative to show how life and marriage to me would be better from "this day forward". On the other hand, I see how it is nearly impossible to make that point without at least "grazing" the future.
I am filled with fear that she just won't believe me and will react poorly and give me the "nice, but it's too late" line. I keep thinking about the lines she has hit me with:
"Maybe your changes will benefit your next relationship"
"It's over! I'm done! And there is nothing you can do or say to change my mind!"
"Give me a rule book on what to do and I'll read it! Better yet - give it to your NEXT wife!"
More recently: "I have NO trust in you at all. I trust that you will do right by our S, but that is it."
I think through those statements and become paralyzed with fear that any outreach on my end will be met with a hail of bullets. Still, I think the time has arrived that I tell her something about where I am right now. I just don't think she will believe me. Should I plan for a negative reaction initially and just hope the core message sinks in gradually?
I'll start thinkingthrough an outline later today......
