missed your post about you starting a new thread, my bad. Here's what I posted on your previous thread,
Sorry for the delay, I've been out of the loop for a bit. (Holiday festivities, life, winter Barbeques )
"having a hard time shaking the feeling of despair"
I know when these feelings wash over they aren't pleasant, to say the least! Say for example, one moment, you're driving the car down the road, everything's fine. Then by chance you happen to pass a favourite hangout for you and W. Or even hear a song on the radio that the two of you have a connection with. All of a sudden, BAMM, feelings of sadness, loneliness, even grief wash over you. (Heck, for the first while I would often have to pull over to get it out of my system or enough that I would be able to drive again...argh!)
Know that for this type of lousy situation these feelings are normal. You can't just sweep them or 'will' them away. They'll come back to bite you on the @%#%! down the road if you do.
Again, keep chipping away at any positives you figure need looking at. As you work through this, you'll get a better and deeper understanding of what's what. The sun does shine again but it has to peek through some clouds first,
Coyote
I haven't posted much in the last seven years. I've been a lurker. Just lookin' to put back all the good help I've gotten...
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